Thursday, January 29, 2009

Fear of "something"...

Wow, I can't believe it's been 2 months since my last post.  I need to get back into the swing of things, and I'm thinking about vlogging future posts.  I have been struggling with the raw food diet, my emotions, and plans for the future.  There are many things I want to change in my life, and I'm not sure what's holding me back.  Is it fear of failure?  Fear of success?  Fear of being judged by others?  Not loving myself enough?  Not feeling like I deserve to be happy, healthly and successful?  Fear of emotions surfacing?  I don't know.  Part of my trouble I know is that I tend to hold onto a lot of guilt.  I'm not sure why I can't just put the past behind me and stop beating myself up for past mistakes, for not being further towards my goals then I think I should be.  I know I'm too hard on myself, but I can't seem to shake that feeling.  If I could just figure out what's holding me back maybe I could fix it...

Blessings,
Debra